A big history of forgetting - Feminist without order Part I

I just get run out of words to begin a catchy introduction here, because it doesn't come. It's just like the air we breathe. We're too adaptable. So forgetful too, even though the fangs are still inside our mind, biting every moment. 

A sexual abuse is not just sexual. Sometimes, I say sometimes, it's body shaming too. Just look at your body. How imperfect it is! Still you love yourself. You're so happy when things come the way you love them. That aura spreads from you to others. Yes, you're so special, but it's not the hundred. 

Imagine you being some fat and you wear a shirt and pants, because they're so provocative or inviting, aren't they, and you travel or move somewhere. You just look somewhere and mind your own business. I'll say that you're so lucky if you go without no triggering. Because it's our society. It's also about our body. How much has this body negativity penetrated into us! Bodyshaming is made a joke and body positivity is pointed out as exaggeration! Man, there's a lot of difference between essential physical stimulation and body shaming! There's the former that your mother or any beloved banging on you a ten times to do an exercise just because you're so lazy but a bit of your body change could mitigate your body problem.

And the latter be like you're walking so hastily and random women be like : " OMG she's like a mountain wearing this and how can't she face any assault! "  Your whole world turns upside down because you're just a person and they're a decaying cross section of what we refer to as the society.

Remember Aimee of the world famous Netflix series sex education? This girl gets enough for her life just because she has the habit of smiling at others. If you feel that my style of writing is now pointing to Aimee as the culprit, well, you're correct, you've maintained your senses in a society which juggles with them. 

Aimee faces abuse from a man and gets traumatised until Jean soothes her. She just drives and goes because she can't go in a bus now. Sorry if feel a void, because I've never seen the series. But  the scenes of Aimee and Jean , if you just see once, can make you feel it at the exact point. It might seem inorganic, because we're just used to it and what an assault can do you, especially in a victimising society, is monstrous. But, you'll at least feel anything- Sometimes a handful of hope, or just boredom due to you yourself who got adapted to this burdening , exhausting business called patriarchy. Or you'll just feel to argue that with your family members ( includes friends ) or just repost. I felt what I said the last, because being a damn sensitive person when connected to gender discrimination makes me feel like it's what I've said in the first paragraph. It's everywhere. Just like smog in every breath, but your guys are like being cool and going on with that and instead of complaining, just jump on you.

I just said that girls run for their life because no matter what equality comes, we're just a step lower than men. We can't even shout at a bus to stop because loud girls won't be modest, they say. Also, we can't even whistle because it'll either seem rowdy or will attract pests . And running for a bus, running out of time, here's an old man looking at my ass like he's never drunk water for years. Random men staring all the way throughout a train journey- have you experienced it? Every indian girl will have experienced things like this at least once in their life. And what people say and parents thus get manipulated is " Better to send her early so that she can get another bus." There's this scene in the famous Tamil film Ratsasi. One of Jyotika's students feel for a boy who's always smiling at her in bus. Jyotika asks her to travel in another bus from the next day. It could have been more nice if she was asked not  to mind him. And that's the condition. When I was so small as 10 years old, a drunk man entered the bus and tried to rub him. Luckily a gentleman gave us seats. This culture is made so normal here and what we hear makes us feel like it's an integral part of our life. Discrimination is never an integral part of any culture!